Getting there…

So, I think my degree show is finally set up and ready. With a lot of set back and complications, but its almost there. The carpet is down, the projector is up, and the sofa is re-covered. I just have to put up the window.
I struggled a lot with the positioning of the projection and the quality of the film, but in the end I have decided that neither of these things matter to the piece. It isn’t the quality of the image, or the positioning of it, it is more that there is just an image there on the wall, like a memory being projected into the space that the current viewers now occupy.
I also have found out that if you film in HD, and then edit on final cut, the export can make it worst than if you had filmed on a normal camera. I filmed on HD…however the more I think through these problems the more I think that the quality of the image isn’t important, the image is just there to show the performance as it happened, it doesn’t need to be clear or precise. It is about re-creation and the problems of re-presentation, so the problems that occur with the set up of the installation are something that have to be shown in it. The piece looks at the way that we can’t re-create things exactly as they were. It is just as much about the failure of recreation as it is about the re-presentation of a previous event. This has come across in other aspects of the piece, for example the shape of the room is not the same, so the carpet is different, I have left the marks and stains made on the coffee table over the last few weeks.
The important part of this piece is the subversion of reality. It is about how fantasy can undermine reality, but also how reality can underpin a fantasy, until it is deemed a reality as well. In the film the fantasy of the actors pretending to be children undermines the reality of the psychotherapist, whilst the reality of the psychotherapist blurs the fantasy of the actor, until there fantasy becomes a reality. The voice over of me reading the transcript of the film is to further undermine the reality of the piece. It questions the reality of the film, and turns that into an uncertain reality. The viewer doesn’t know if it is exactly what the people said in the film. The voice over is not lip-synced and further more, which the pixilation of the piece now, it is hard to see the movements of the actor mouth. The voice over adds a air of creepiness to an already uncertain situation, and gives the viewers a general sense of unease.